MARIAH CAREY- Camouflage LYRICS

I remember so many nights in the bed alone
Wondering could I muster the strength to exist in the bitter cold
But you showed up once in a while, I guess that’s alright
Cause I told my heart that you needed time for your selfish fight

I camouflage my tears
And I wear a disguise
[?] to know that you still love me
I need to know, say that you do
To know if you still love me
I need you now, say that you do

There are some times when I tried to discern our reality
Wish that I just could be somebody else if you talked to me
Don’t bring him inside, let him love me for who I am
Please, my love
But you were just somewhere that I couldn’t reach
Couldn’t understand

I camouflage my tears
And I wear a disguise
To know if you still love me
I need to know, say that you do
To know if you still love me
I need you now, say that you do

Didn’t we swear we’d give it our everything?
Didn’t I give you all of me?
And not a day goes by
When I wonder inside
Baby if you feel the way you used to feel

I camouflage my tears
And you wear a disguise